Does this huge pain in my heart go?

LovelyOne.
All I can tell you is you are completely justifyed to feel like you do and don't let anyone tell you, you should be "over it". Personally I think I bottled things up and the feelings got on top of me, so my advice is talk about it, acknowledge what you have lost and that you have lost. I do feel better now than I did a month ago but I do think about my bubs every day, I think as time goes by that will lessen but I also feel that the babies we have lost deserve to be remembered with love .
I hope that helps in some way although I do think everyone grieves differently so you just need to find what works for you.

You have been through an awful experience and I would think something was wrong if you weren't grieving for your lost babies.

I think there is a support site for twin loss, I will see if I can find it for you.

thanks heaps. i hadnt even thought to look for a twinloss site

I'm really sorry Lovelyone. Unfortunetly some people just don't 'get it'. I have to admit that before we lost our first baby I too didn't quite understand the severity of the pain you feel when you miscarry. So many comments I received hurt, when in actual fact people were trying to be supportive - they just didn't really know what to say or do.

Like Bizzy said, please don't be hard on yourself. Let yourself grieve, you have experienced a loss, don't let yourself or anyone else minimise it. Take care of yourself

Sorry to hear your loss Like others have said, give yourself time. When I MC'ed it felt like forever before I felt ok about it and all the hurt, and when I think about it now I still get a bit upset. But it does get better, just let the healing process take its time

i am also so very sorry that you have to go through this too.

i agree with what everyone above has written and that this site has been awesomely helpful - a great community of women who have been through the same experience and don't say the wrong thing (like our friends seem to sometimes....) or try to ignore it because they don't know what to say.

i'm with you thesaff....pretending i was ok all the time was not a good idea. letting myself cry when i wanted to and allowing myself to really feel my emotions (sadness, anger etc) was a process for me and in the end healthier.

6 months later i cry alot alot less, but have more of an understanding that for me my grief is a rollercoaster and just when i think i am doing well, something can trigger me off again. the only difference now is that i just go with it and don't beat myself up for feeling however i feel that day.

be kind to yourself. i have read that the level of pain we feel is correlated to the level of attachment we felt for our lost babies, not their age. when i buried our 11 week old angel baby part of the note i wrote was from dr seuss: "a person's a person no matter how small" because that really is how i feel.

don't let anyone make you feel that your grief is unjustified. HUGS

Thanks Ladies for all your lovely replys, I know it will get easier , and time is the best healer!
My mission is to be strong, hold my head up and remember my lost babies.
I know im been hard on myself, just the pressure from 3rd parties is hard.
You are all so brave and kind.....
Thanking you muchly
*****J