And i remember...
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Topic: And i remember...
Posted By: Guests
Subject: And i remember...
Date Posted: 20 March 2007 at 10:31am
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Why i dont like TTC.
I hate PCOS i hate Endo i hate infertility. I thought i had ovulated early and i got so excited and had a temp drop today which inclines that i havent ovulated (basically i havent been temping at the beginning as i lost my thermometer in the move) but now i have it im temping again and its driving me insane. I feel like im ovulating but i had not ONE + OPK. They are as negative as can come. I sit here with a depressed feeling hanging over me as i remember what i went through last time. And then again i look at the OPK that i got last month and cant help but wonder if it was completely wasted! I hate hate hate this why cant i just be a super uber fertile being? I look at the clomid in my cupboard and dream but i know i shouldnt take it. I dont even know why i still have it. Sorry to the others out there like ginger here i am whinging over a couple of weeks of ttc and you have been at it and face REAL issues GAH! Once again TTC sucks balls! |
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Posted By: ginger
Date Posted: 20 March 2007 at 11:18am
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Jess, whether you have no children, one child, or ten children, and you are facing infertility of any kind, it doesn't matter a damn. Infertility hurts, it is terrible and tragic and an awful emotional roller coaster.
It is not wrong to wish that you were uber fertile, or to feel jealous of people who are ...you feel what you feel. Our reactions to things are perfectly natural. Why *wouldn't* you covet someone's ability to sneeze and become pregnant? You can't help that, and I am absolutely sure that no one would begrudge you it. It's also not wrong to have regrets, such as why you didn't TTC when you had that positive OPK. You were going through something really hard, emotionally you were struggling and didn't think you could do it, and you did the very best thing for yourself, for your husband, and for Ella-Grace at the time ...had you been TTC, what you were going through might possibly have been even worse, come a negative HPT, if that had happened. Instead, by making the decision you made, you felt strong enough to come back fighting the next month and start TTC. None of us can know how things will play out for each of us ...and it's the not knowing how long we will have to put ourselves through what we're going through that makes it really, really tough. If you knew that you'd be pregnant next month, or in 12 months, you'd do whatever you had to do, wouldn't you? And that's the bugger ...we have no idea. We're right here for you Jess - for you to vent, cry and get as many cyber hugs as you can handle. Don't ever let yourself think that you shouldn't be feeling what you're feeling. You are perfectly entitled. Damn infertility roller coaster.  ------------- Cuinn Lachlan 23.1.09 - 22:00 Antonia Helene 4.8.11 - 09:41 |
Posted By: james
Date Posted: 20 March 2007 at 12:22pm
hay jess just wanna send you some big hugs and remeber we are here for you ------------- <a href="http://lilypie.com"><img src="http://b4.lilypie.com/nLJ5p13.png" alt="Lilypie 4th Birthday Ticker" border="0" /></a> |
Posted By: busymum
Date Posted: 20 March 2007 at 12:47pm
Well said Ginger, except.... people get pg when they *sneeze*?? Why am (was) I bothering with all that BDing then  -------------  |
Posted By: mummy_becks
Date Posted: 20 March 2007 at 12:51pm
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Jess I know is a curse to be a woman. Remember Ella G did get here so at some stage she will get a little bro or sis. Just a side question why can't you take the clomid?? ------------- I was a puree feeder, forward facing, cot sleeping, pram pushing kind of Mum... and my kids survived! |
Posted By: ginger
Date Posted: 20 March 2007 at 1:08pm
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What? You have to BD? Uh oh ...maybe *that's* my problem ...too much sniffing pepper, not enough BDing ...
(Also, I just realised I typed 'cover' not 'covet' - I meant covet. Cover makes no sense.) ------------- Cuinn Lachlan 23.1.09 - 22:00 Antonia Helene 4.8.11 - 09:41 |
Posted By: noodle
Date Posted: 20 March 2007 at 2:35pm
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Poor you Jess big
And well said Ginger!!!! 
fingers crossed and baby dust to all that need it 
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Posted By: Guests
Date Posted: 20 March 2007 at 3:46pm
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Thanks ladies.
Becks i dont know if i can or cant its just i took it after a year of trying last time so im not sure. A psychic has told me it will take 6 months but i dont know lol |