Pregnancy Blues

Can anyone help me out there in babyland?

I'm 11 weeks pregnant and feeling in a bad way. This is a culmination of many factors that all seem to have come at once. I'm 11 weeks pregnant, have a great partner who is as supportive as I could ever hope for. However, one of my jobs just finished up, leaving me with more time on my hands. I am looking on seek and seeing other jobs I would have a good shot at getting except for one little detail - I'm nearly 6 months away from having a baby! what employer in their right mind would want me. My career is just at the point where it could get interesting and I'm bowing out. This is getting me down.

Plus the usual feeling sick and not sleeping well. I have no motivation to do the things I used to enjoy - yoga, biking, cooking etc. I feel like some other person has hijacked my personality - I've become weepy at the slightest thing. I achieve nothing in a whole day. I have been so lacking in motivation to get my work done too, and feeling constantly guilty about that.

I don't resent this baby as such, but I am wondering if we've done the right thing. Baby was semi-expected but the reality of what we're doing is kicking in. I'm worried that I'm not ready for such a huge change in my life. Don't want to be a baby bore to my friends or some isolated mum at home watching the good morning show. In a nutshell - I'm petrified.
Help!

Hi Benlota,
I felt quite similar throughout my first trimester. I had a secure enjoyable job/career, great husband, planned pregnancy and still remember feeling what you describe. I can remember crying most evenings, crying when I told some close friends about the pregnancy, while at the same time rationally thinking, "huh"??? I was really baffled to feel this way but have put it down to hormones/emotional changes and being incredibly tired. I think the motivation to not do the things you enjoy is because of all this - I remember that too.
For the job, that must make it so much harder, but legally no one can hold your pregnancy against you, and also they probably don't even have to know yet, esp if you haven't told the general population.
In good news, I'm now 26 weeks (my first) and LOVING my pregnancy!! since about week 16 I've been super happy and positive and everything is great :) :)
Hang in there, and I think you sound very normal, so go easy on yourself and remember you're just finishing growing a whole new organ, and also working on a human being. It's a big deal and you're allowed to feel crap.

Just wanted to say on the feeling crap and tired and sick front, this will start to ease off soon. I was really tired and felt sick through the first trimester from about 12 weeks this started to ease off and the 2nd trimester i've had heaps more energy.

Hope you're feeling better soon.