thanks for the replies everyone
its so nice to hear from u all
i plan on checking with IRD tomorrow
its just i feel really down
i think i understimate the toll ivf takes on me
on medication- off medication- hot flushes
not getting pregnant- eating like im pregnant-
gaining weight because of the hormones- taking pills and pessaries 3 times a day- phone calls to the clinic- friends asking how i am - caring but not having any idea how i really am
it can all get too much
im gona ring the clinic tomorrow and i will book
for the darn counselling
gonna go have a good cry now
all those bad feelings like...
"im too old to have a baby" (im 34)
"what if i never do ..."- r sneaking back in to my head
darn it
thanks for understanding
emile