https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/ Copyright (c) 2006-2013 Web Wiz Forums - All Rights Reserved. Wed, 29 Apr 2026 12:23:01 +0000 Tue, 18 Oct 2016 20:54:46 +0000 http://blogs.law.harvard.edu/tech/rss Web Wiz Forums 12.05 360 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/RSS_post_feed.asp?TID=45057 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_images/web_wiz_forums.png https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/ https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5901523&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5901523 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 18 October 2016 at 8:54pm

Hi ya. Sorry I went awol. Would PM but where the heck has that gone since I was last on here?

Glad you've had that appt over with and can think about the future. It's amazing how that gives closure even if no answers as to why.

So we had our conversation. It sucked. Was very very hard. DH basically said that he felt he should 'set me free' because he didn't want to do another ivf and didn't want to be the one holding me back. I refused that offer lol. I'm not about to chuck 12 years out the door over having a baby. So we've ceased ttc. He's open to trying foster care but for now we're just being us. For me that means remembering what it was like to live a normal life. I won't say it's a walk in the park and I hold onto some hope that one day the universe will bless us with a child somehow. I still grieve every day for Paige. I wish things didn't end like they did. And it makes me angry. Anywho due to us not ttc anymore I ceased the forum. Just checked in here because I'd been thinking of you.
Hope you're doing ok hun xx Will lurk around and check in here but if you want to keep in touch my email is stackyb@hotmail.com seeing as we can't seem to do the PM thing any more. ]]> Tue, 18 Oct 2016 20:54:46 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5901523&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5901523 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5900770&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5900770 Author: GEONC
Subject: 45057
Posted: 13 September 2016 at 5:15pm

Here's to your new future!!! Xx]]> Tue, 13 Sep 2016 17:15:06 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5900770&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5900770 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5900738&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5900738 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 12 September 2016 at 2:08pm

So we're on the otherside of all that now (at least what I last posted about).
A really tough week full of emotion. We were not told anything new about Micah's condition, it was "bad luck".
Feeling good with the start of a new week and focusing on the future now.]]> Mon, 12 Sep 2016 14:08:41 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5900738&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5900738 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5900643&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5900643 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 05 September 2016 at 8:10pm

Gosh, that's tough for your cousin-in-law. So many ppl walk a hard road and we mostly ahve no clue.
Have you had that conversation with DH? I hope it was a gentle one at the least. The head talk drives you mad doesn't it?

3 more sleeps til due date and we have our follow up appointment at the hospital on the same day. I rang at 9 weeks post partum and there was no report so no appointment had been made, finally rang again last week and the response was "Do you want a follow up?" I couldn't say no to the appointment on Thursday as I didn't want to have to wait any longer and I'd already applied for leave. One upside is the appointment is local.

I'm struggling, I just want these next few days over and done with.]]> Mon, 05 Sep 2016 20:10:20 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5900643&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5900643 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5900363&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5900363 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 22 August 2016 at 8:12pm

Oh hun. I so get how you're feeling. I was a wreck when I got the photos of Paige. DH hasn't even looked at them - that I'm aware of. He's happier just putting that in it's place and that's it. Although after his wee meltdown I'm wondering how he is actually coping. Hard to see them hurting as much as us huh. Everyone worries about the mother a lot of the time but then it's also the bloke who has to deal with it too.

My cousin-in-law and I caught up last week. She and my cousin have lost 4 pregnancies - 3 at the 16-20wks mark and one later on. I can't begin to imgaine......but my point is that she said their grief worked out quite well as she would cry every day for 3-4 months and then start to feel better and once that happened he would have his moment. Timing worked that she was a lot stronger to be there for him when he wasn't ok any more. If that makes sense.
They ended up not having children. All 4 were unrelated issues with those 1 in 100,000 type statistics.

Anywho..I'm stoked you got to see your house model. That's super exciting.

Things are better in our house this week. Still haven't had a conversation about anything major but we'll have to soon. Quite nice just to 'be'. I have moments where I think I can handle this no kids thing and then others where I just get so gutted about what my life is going to look like. Stupid thing is I worry most about what life will be like when I'm old and have no kids to look after me. And people look at you in a different light if you don't have children...like you're weird or something.
Gah - thinking about it does my head in!

]]> Mon, 22 Aug 2016 20:12:02 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5900363&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5900363 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5900351&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5900351 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 22 August 2016 at 6:20am

I think that the reason why that hurt was it gave me a little insight into how much hubby is still hurting. I wear my emotions on the outside and while I know he still grieves I didn't realise how much.]]> Mon, 22 Aug 2016 06:20:52 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5900351&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5900351 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5900350&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5900350 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 22 August 2016 at 6:18am

Oh BC. My heart goes out to you both. We get thrown the curve balls one after the other after the other! Time for a break now universe come on!

Rental is ok. Plenty good enough for short term. Got to check out a finished model of our new house yesterday which was great

Collected Micah's casts yesterday and was a complete mess. Love looking at them now though. Hubby saw them but didn't touch. He said I'll have a look later and I thought it was because DS was there and just wanted to play with them so I got them out when he was a asleep thinking he'll have a touch but he just looked at me and said "I will in my own time"
I was so desperately wanting them I never stopped to think that hubby wouldn't be ready. I talked to him later on and he said he wants to be alone when he looks at them. That hurt my heart a little thinking about him being alone while doing that. But I understood.

Edited by LP pka Rainyday - 22 August 2016 at 6:19am]]> Mon, 22 Aug 2016 06:18:13 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5900350&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5900350 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5900323&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5900323 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 19 August 2016 at 10:05pm

Hey chick. Huge hugs as the due date rolls around Hun. I won't lie it's not a fun time so
I'm sending you all the strength I can.

Yeah things here haven't been so hot lately. DH had a health scare, long story, and still 100% sure what caused it so we've been dealing with that. I'm picking it's all stress related. Ended up putting Ivf on hold (would've been in the thick of it now) as last weekend he had a meltdown and I just decided it's not worth wrecking us over right now. So yeah been a bit full on these past couple weeks. We haven't really talked about how he's feeling and at the start of the week I was quite worried about him but he seems to have brightened as its gone on. For now I'm just leaving it but will have to face the elephant in the room eventually. And it may mean we stop with the whole baby thing. I'm giving myself time to process that possibility before I approach the topic.
Needless to say the grief has been quite strong 🙄

How's the rental going? ]]> Fri, 19 Aug 2016 22:05:18 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5900323&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5900323 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5900321&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5900321 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 19 August 2016 at 9:30pm

Crikey life has been crazy.

Today should have been my last day of work as I had planned a few weeks before due date. Not sure how I feel.about the pending due date.
Mostly feeling ok about things

How are you BC? Where are you at with ivf?]]> Fri, 19 Aug 2016 21:30:58 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5900321&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5900321 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899882&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899882 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 29 July 2016 at 8:21pm

Yeah my friend is very open but even she said, she feels like it's an elephant in the room. Kind of refreshing though.
Oh that's awful that DH had to explain that, sounds like it was good you weren't there. Yikes.

Might have to lurk on you in the IVF thread then!

Yes, we secured a rental today which is a weight off my mind!! Now the planning to actually move which might be happening when I'm at a business conference in the gold coast! Bad timing but we'll make it work.]]> Fri, 29 Jul 2016 20:21:37 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899882&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899882 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899878&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899878 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 29 July 2016 at 3:11pm

Yay for a lovely lunch today. And yay that you're friend was open to chatting about Micah too. Grief is a bit strange and I don't think you can truly appreciate it until you've been through it. I have a few friends who aren't too afraid to ask how I am, and actually mean it (if that makes sense). I try to be pretty honest, especially if I'm not doing well. But it's quite interesting really as it's like there's a time limit on asking about the loss of a baby and then people just stop. It could also be me though as I find I don't talk so openly as I was. Guess I don't want to people to feel sorry for me. Not to worry, I keep her alive in my mind.
Random awkward story though - DH was in a shop the other day and the lady who served him knew us and mentioned that I mustn't be far off due so then he had to explain what happened to her. But being typical him he said it in such a crass way that I cringed when he told me, thankfully he did explain the full story.

Back to work this week which has helped as a distraction and keeps my mind busy so life is ticking along nicely. First lot of drugs arrived yesterday but still a couple weeks before I start the IVF.

Stink you haven't had you're appt yet. 11+ weeks is way too long to wait. I'd almost be ringing now.

Did you sort out where to live now that you're building?]]> Fri, 29 Jul 2016 15:11:17 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899878&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899878 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899877&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899877 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 29 July 2016 at 2:40pm

hi lovely,
no we haven't had our follow up yet. I've been waiting for it. NOw that I know the report is in, if I don't get an appointment soon i'll follow up.
Hope you get out of your funk soon. Glad you got through your due date. There are lots of babies popping up on facebook lately which has been alittle hard to see. Sometimes that personal bubble is there to protect you I think and you need to spend a bit of time in there so you can face the real world again.
Golly I think it's inevitable but I really hope the IVF doesn't add too much to the craziest in your head.
Had a lovely lunch with a friend today and we chatted about Micah and I was surpirsed at what made me cry and what I could talk about easily. Grief is such an odd thing.]]> Fri, 29 Jul 2016 14:40:39 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899877&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899877 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899756&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899756 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 25 July 2016 at 8:05pm

Huge hugs hun. Never easy when something like that comes out of the blue. Only natural to be a bit wobbly here and there.
Great news about the house. Congratulations. Wow cool to have a brand new build to move into eventually.
You haven't had a specialist follow up yet have you re Micah?

My mind is a bit more settled. I've reflected that the week prior and then during AF is clearly playing a massive role in my state of mind. Honestly I thought I was going to go insane and then once AF finished everything settled in my mind and I felt heaps better. Even got through the whole 'due' date thing. I must admit though I'm finding things like my confidence are shot. I over think things - especially interactions with people and then it upsets me or plays on my mind. I'm pretty sure most of the time I'm blowing things ways out of proportion. Then I have moments where I feel like I must be the worst person in the world to be around because I feel so angry inside and sometimes can't think outside my own bubble.
See .... this is me after AF has finished so chuck in hormones and yep going insane. Start IVF next cycle which I guess is probably also adding to the mind-f*** that I'm having right now.

But in spite of all that I've just spewed onto the page I'm still at 90% ok. Believe it or not.....]]> Mon, 25 Jul 2016 20:05:08 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899756&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899756 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899753&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899753 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 25 July 2016 at 7:36pm

Took DS to the doctor today for a general check up after a nasty cough that's not letting up. He's fine of course but GP did mention that the autopsy report is back for Micah. I was a bit numb when she said that. She said there was "nothing we didn't already know" in there but I still didn't read it. I'll request a copy and see whether we will also have an appointment with the dr to go through it.
Very wobbly this morning, I hope I'm not like this every single Monday
11 weeks today.

On a lighter note we went unconditional on a house, new build (partially done with framing and a roof) so now the tough part of finding somewhre to live in the mean time as the settlement dates are way out.]]> Mon, 25 Jul 2016 19:36:59 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899753&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899753 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899571&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899571 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 18 July 2016 at 9:23am

Hey. Away with girlfriends for a night hence delayed reply. Glad to hear your period has settled. I was lucky to have my body just go straight back its usual routine.

Sorry to hear you've been up and down. I have too, due date was this week coming so I keep thinking about that. Hopefully once that passes I can start thinking forward a bit more. I still have awful moments of how unfair it all is. Big hugs Hun.
Bummer you missed another house but hope the next one is the one.

Off for a day shopping now but back to the grindstone tomorrow 🙄]]> Mon, 18 Jul 2016 09:23:42 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899571&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899571 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899560&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899560 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 17 July 2016 at 2:06pm

Sunshine and spa sounds amazing. Crazy how such a wee girl can put you so out of line physically. Glad you're feeling better.

We will definitely ttc again. Probably next year i would say. Could change my mind on that though.
CD4 on period 2 since giving birth and going on the pill. I think it's taken me four days to use the same number of pads and tampons I did in one day last month. So Glad I'm on the pill & don't have to deal.with such horrendous bleeding.
Going to the Gold coast next month for business conference so.will probably skip that period.
Been pretty up and down this week.
Looking at putting an offer on a new build (just framing at the moment) as we missed out at auction again last week


Edited by LP pka Rainyday - 17 July 2016 at 2:07pm]]> Sun, 17 Jul 2016 14:06:45 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899560&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899560 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899427&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899427 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 11 July 2016 at 4:16pm

Totally enjoying my break. Daily sits in the spa at the parents are just lovely. The sun is shining and I can just lay around reading my book if I want lol. Got my back / pelvis fixed today. Was out of line after having Paige.
You sound like you're doing better each week Hun. Always going to be those tricky days but the time between stretches further.
A crystal ball would be fricking awesome - is love to know what the next 6mths will bring. No further just that far.

Well done for surviving today with your mums group. Always tricky.
Do you think you'll try ttc again sometime in the future?
]]> Mon, 11 Jul 2016 16:16:00 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899427&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899427 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899421&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899421 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 11 July 2016 at 12:59pm

Hope you seriously enjoy your down time at home. Yes a good cry does wonders.

Sounds like you are doing so well BC. Things improved over the weekend.
The busy-ness is really helping. It gives me something to look forward to and I'm not even thinking about TTC again which is a weight off my shoulders for now.

It's so sunny and warm (inside) today have already been out for a play date/coffee with our mums group. Two preggy ladies, was a little hard to see their bellies but quickly brushed it aside.

Some days I wish I had a crystal ball and other days, I think that it wouldn't help at all!!]]> Mon, 11 Jul 2016 12:59:42 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899421&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899421 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899398&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899398 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 09 July 2016 at 11:36pm

I'm back. Sorry for such a quick post I was in line at the supermarket lol!
Have arrived at my parents for r&r until Friday. Exhausted so it's a welcome holiday.

Strange what makes you teary hey. The thought of pak n save hurts me - that's where we went right after our first bad scan with Paige - DH got groceries while I cried the whole way round. Coming home was a hurdle too. Last time I was here was just before we had our MFM appt and it was my brothers wedding. Had to pretend all weekend things were amazing.

Anywho like you say onwards and upwards. Feel better for my big cry. Sorry you missed out on the house you wanted but think something will come up at the right time. Good to hear the business is going well and busy too.

Have mixed feelings about the ivf. I like to be in control of my life but during ivf you're at the mercy of the clinic and trying to juggle work can be full on too. But work is amazing so that halves the worry.

Hope your weekend goes ok. Good to hear from you Hun xx]]> Sat, 09 Jul 2016 23:36:05 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899398&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899398 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899394&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899394 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 09 July 2016 at 4:04pm

Man must be the day for it - having a major low that day. Almost lost my sh*t at netball - got to car and bawled. On my way to stay with my parents. Much needed break.

Stink about your results. I get how upsetting it is that's for sure.

Gotta go but will post later today. Xx]]> Sat, 09 Jul 2016 16:04:08 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899394&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899394 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899392&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899392 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 09 July 2016 at 1:46pm

A little glimmer of hope is all you need right? August is so close how are you feeling about going through the various procedures?

House stuff is a bit crazy and up in the air at the moment. Looked at some sections this mornig and about to go to another open home for an auction on Wednesday. Missed out on a house I really wanted at auction on Wednesday just gone but not too worried about it now. Onwards and upwards. Super busy with my business and normal work and life in general

Got knocked for six when i rang auckland MFM about my follow up appointment to be told they have no results yet and it could be another 3 weeks at the least. It's nine weeks on monday, im disappointed to say the least. It left me very emotional and just looking at flowers in the supermarket today while I was waiting to buy lotto was enough to get me feeling teary again although I think I'm getting my period so that doesn't help.

]]> Sat, 09 Jul 2016 13:46:03 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899392&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899392 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899271&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899271 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 04 July 2016 at 7:51pm

Hey chick. I've been thinking of you lots this week/weekend. Glad you've got some distractions to keep your mind busy. I found it helps most of the time to be busy. I hear you though. I miss being pregnant too. July is my due month although the actual date is later in the month. I've been a bit up and down, not hugely but enough to unsettle.
I have one more square in my blanket to go then I can start putting it altogether. Got super busy so it's gone on the wayside again lol. But will holidays coming up I'll get it done. Our little 5 acres is doing well haha. DH is busy getting a shed built for his work trucks so that's a bit exciting.

On the whole I'm ok. Finally got the consents back to the clinic to do IVF in August. Have a little glimmer of hope that it'll all work out ok.

How's the house stuff going?]]> Mon, 04 Jul 2016 19:51:58 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899271&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899271 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899267&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899267 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 04 July 2016 at 7:12pm

How are you BC? How was the farm? That's lovely you have a wee project to finish in Paige's memory ❤

8 weeks today. I'm mostly good most days.
I've got enough distractions to keep me busy
I miss my girl endlessly. I miss being pregnant. ]]> Mon, 04 Jul 2016 19:12:50 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899267&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899267 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899066&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899066 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 25 June 2016 at 8:01pm

And I got this sudden urge to pull out the knitting I started 2 years ago when I got utd the first time. I've had periods where I can't even look at it and then when Paige came along I got stuck in to get it (a blanket) done. Of course got busy in term 1 and then lost her so didn't get it done. Now determined to finish it regardless of what the future holds. It's therapeutic but also hurts at the same time. ]]> Sat, 25 Jun 2016 20:01:43 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899066&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899066 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899065&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899065 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 25 June 2016 at 7:56pm

Hope that chocolate helps you feel better.
I've been doing a little bit of the should have beens too. Should've been 36wks now and should've been going on leave in two weeks. Should have a big belly. The list goes on. It fully blows!!!
Going home to my parents for a week in the holidays. Looking forward to seeing home and the farm but kinda feel sad about the fact I'm not having a baby these holidays. ]]> Sat, 25 Jun 2016 19:56:09 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899065&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899065 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899064&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899064 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 25 June 2016 at 7:16pm

Never really thought it wouldn't sell. It just all happened so quick I didn't have time to.think it would fall through!!

I thunk the next step is going to be more stressful.
I've been pretty good this week. Just had a major angry moment this evening. So annoyed at the world with regards to my babies
It's Damn unfair. Thinking about the "should have beens"

I have chocolate. That might help.]]> Sat, 25 Jun 2016 19:16:33 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899064&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899064 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899060&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899060 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 24 June 2016 at 9:31pm

Congrats on selling the house! Must be a bit of a relief?

So glad it's the weekend!! ]]> Fri, 24 Jun 2016 21:31:17 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899060&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899060 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899058&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899058 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 24 June 2016 at 9:02pm

Hugs BC. I've been having a lot of days like that.

House is sold! Celebrated with champagne and a game of thrones catch up. Champagne has gone to my head and now I'm ready for bed!!

Hope everyone has a good weekend.]]> Fri, 24 Jun 2016 21:02:58 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899058&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899058 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899024&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899024 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 22 June 2016 at 7:41pm

Glad the GP was lovely. Just what you needed.
And crazy you could have sold your house by the weekend! Exciting times.

Been ok here -,hanging for school hols. Trying to sort Ivf and having the it's not fair moments thanks to AF hormones.
Such is my life now. ]]> Wed, 22 Jun 2016 19:41:28 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899024&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899024 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899023&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899023 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 22 June 2016 at 6:13pm

GP was good, except she made me cry. She's seriously so lovely. So I've started the pill. Might muck my cycle up a bit starting CD13 but I'm not too worried about that. She was happy to help in anyway with regards to contacting about my follow up appointment etc which is great.
Pre auction offer accepted last night so auction has been moved to Friday!! Crazy times]]> Wed, 22 Jun 2016 18:13:16 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5899023&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5899023 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898934&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898934 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 19 June 2016 at 9:22am

Hope yesterday was OK RD.
Good idea to go to the doctor re your period. It's hard to feel that extra connection when you can't have the intimacy.

Lazy day for me today. Had drinks with my netball friends last night so feeling a bit slow lol. Also got my period so now trying to decide what month to do Ivf. I was thinking next cycle but think August or September might be better. ]]> Sun, 19 Jun 2016 09:22:28 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898934&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898934 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898913&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898913 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 18 June 2016 at 7:55am

Oh man that poor woman. Thats beyond cruel 😥

Feeling a bit better this morning & we've got a busy weekend with open homes etc.

Got a GP app on Tuesday I've decided to go on the pill for a few months to help with my periods and to make sure we don't get pregnancy in that time. I do miss the intimacy so hope that will help with Feeling less distant from DH. At the moment feels like we are just going through the motions]]> Sat, 18 Jun 2016 07:55:19 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898913&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898913 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898912&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898912 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 17 June 2016 at 9:32pm

Oh hugs RD. Sorry you're having a rough time at the moment. The unfairness of it f$&*s me off too.
Was talking to a mum of one of our kids yesterday about it - last year she lost twins and another all at 22wks. I can't even begin to comprehend how anyone could be still functioning after that.

Your appointment shouldn't be too far away I'd imagine. For me that appointment helped hugely in terms of my head space.

Xxxx]]> Fri, 17 Jun 2016 21:32:10 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898912&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898912 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898910&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898910 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 17 June 2016 at 9:22pm

Period is still going Grrr over it.

Got a letter from the hospital sending condolences & support info as well as a coloured card to decorate and send back for their remberance wall. Another unnecessary reminder. Was hoping it was my follow up appointment

Been feeling really pissed off lately about the unfairness of it all. I've even been getting phantom kicks. 😥]]> Fri, 17 Jun 2016 21:22:29 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898910&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898910 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898768&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898768 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 13 June 2016 at 2:28pm

Reiki is very relaxing and you do get a sense of peace and sometimes answers.

Glad you're feeling a bit better BC.

Things have settled a little since putting my feet up while DS is asleep. The mmorning was a bit crazy so that probably Didn't help.]]> Mon, 13 Jun 2016 14:28:06 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898768&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898768 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898766&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898766 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 13 June 2016 at 8:03am

Thanks girls. Woke up feeling a bit better today. It's just a bump in the road at the moment very likely linked to hormones I would imagine.

RD that sound rather over the top for a period. I'd get that looked at. Glad Reiki wasn't so raw this time.

Have a great day girls. ]]> Mon, 13 Jun 2016 08:03:46 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898766&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898766 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898765&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898765 Author: antheawren
Subject: 45057
Posted: 13 June 2016 at 7:43am

Does it give you answers rd? Or peace? I'm not sure how it works! Do you think you should contact your midwife? That sounds very heavy!]]> Mon, 13 Jun 2016 07:43:57 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898765&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898765 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898763&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898763 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 13 June 2016 at 6:59am

Those are some tough questions you're asking yourself. No one can tell you right or wrong. You've been through so much it's only natural to question your decisions and what the future holds. Don't be too hard on yourself

Reiki was very different from last week. Not so raw and emotional. Mostly positive with a few tears at the end. Felt good afterwards though.

But oh my goodness my period is sooooo heavy. It,s awful. Woke up soaked through this morning
So yucky. Didn't even have that much the night of having Micah. At least it's not too painful]]> Mon, 13 Jun 2016 06:59:53 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898763&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898763 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898746&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898746 Author: antheawren
Subject: 45057
Posted: 12 June 2016 at 7:23pm

Aw bc my heart hurts for you! Such a huge hard decision to make and so totally unfair I'm sorry xxx

How did reiki go rd?]]> Sun, 12 Jun 2016 19:23:37 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898746&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898746 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898744&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898744 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 12 June 2016 at 6:27pm

Haha yeah first time I had a drink I hated the tispy feeling. I've managed to get past that now thought lol.

Enjoy the reiki session - maybe that's what I need. Feeling super emotional today. Maybe it's cos my period is due in a week. Worried about what life will bring for me, whether IVF is the best route or I should just give up now and then scared that my only child is one I had to bury. Which makes me royally cheesed off and angry. Sometimes I just think giving up now would be the most freeing feeling but then the longing creeps back in. I'm only 33 - there's a whole lotta life left to live and if I don't have children to fill it then what is my life meant to be about?

Anywho guess I can reflect for a couple days while DH is away and get my head in a better space. ]]> Sun, 12 Jun 2016 18:27:57 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898744&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898744 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898743&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898743 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 12 June 2016 at 6:16pm

EW hangovers. Yuck.
I had a glass of cider last week and i felt tipsy after one, LOL. I can't imagine having enough to get rolling drunk!
Having another reiki session tonight. Not looking forward to the "during" but definitely the after effects are great.]]> Sun, 12 Jun 2016 18:16:10 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898743&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898743 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898740&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898740 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 12 June 2016 at 4:06pm

Oh bugger alright RD.

The party was fun. DH got himself royally drunken....argh haha. He's paying for it today. His promise of leaving after the rugby was finished went out the window and we never left till 12am meaning after our 2hr drive home we didn't get to bed till after 2am. Now he's gone away for a couple nights for work so I'm catching up on housework lol.]]> Sun, 12 Jun 2016 16:06:23 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898740&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898740 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898738&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898738 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 12 June 2016 at 12:51pm

Bugger. Think I have to make today CD1. Much heavier bright red and crampy today. Unusual to have two days of such light bleeding. I used to have one day at the most.
Only had to take one lot of pain killers so far today so hoping it doesnt get any worse.
Hope you enjoyed the party BC]]> Sun, 12 Jun 2016 12:51:31 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898738&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898738 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898721&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898721 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 11 June 2016 at 8:50am

Awesome you've had interest in your house but a busy weekend ahead.
Stink it's been a rough couple days. Period hormones won't be helping. Glad your body seems to be working ok still after that op. I had a hysteroscopy (sp) the cycle before Paige and reckon that was the magic trick and thankfully my periods still seem healthier than before.

Have a great day / weekend. I've got a busy one two with DH going away for work for three nights from tomorrow we're busy getting all the food sorted (he's a contractor so got to feed the workers) and then netball plus a 30th tonight. ]]> Sat, 11 Jun 2016 08:50:18 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898721&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898721 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898720&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898720 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 11 June 2016 at 8:24am

Yay that'll come around quick.

I'm ok. Been very up & down last two days with Micah's month anniversary and getting my period. CD3 and it is nothing like it normally is. My periods were horrendous & only had one cycle after my op before getting pg so I hope this is an indication that the op helped in that regard.

Two unofficial open homes this weekend today and tomorrow so it's busy tidying at least everything is clean except for a quick vacuum. RE agents phone has been going crazy which is a good sign.

Edited by LP pka Rainyday - 11 June 2016 at 8:25am]]> Sat, 11 Jun 2016 08:24:37 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898720&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898720 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898706&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898706 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 10 June 2016 at 8:54pm

Thanks Hun. Not sure I'm hoping around mid-end July. I'll have one more cycle then start I think.

How's things with you?]]> Fri, 10 Jun 2016 20:54:18 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898706&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898706 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898705&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898705 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 10 June 2016 at 8:35pm

Got everything crossed for you. When do you officially start?]]> Fri, 10 Jun 2016 20:35:36 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898705&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898705 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898704&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898704 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 10 June 2016 at 8:26pm

Yep it's a fresh cycle again. Despite always getting plenty of eggs I never seem to get more than one embie to transfer. Not sure why. My ideal scenario would be to get two so I have a back up.
]]> Fri, 10 Jun 2016 20:26:23 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898704&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898704 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898703&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898703 Author: GEONC
Subject: 45057
Posted: 10 June 2016 at 8:03pm

Eep exciting BC!!!
]]> Fri, 10 Jun 2016 20:03:29 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898703&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898703 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898702&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898702 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 10 June 2016 at 8:01pm

Great BC...so do you have to do the whole IVF procedure oor do you have some embies to transfer?]]> Fri, 10 Jun 2016 20:01:35 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898702&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898702 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898699&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898699 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 10 June 2016 at 7:36pm

Appointment went well. Pretty straight forward and he lined up the plan for the next IVF which is the same as the last one with hopefully an actual baby at the end. ]]> Fri, 10 Jun 2016 19:36:18 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898699&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898699 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898690&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898690 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 10 June 2016 at 4:05pm

Will let you know just waiting for it now 😎]]> Fri, 10 Jun 2016 16:05:01 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898690&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898690 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898688&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898688 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 10 June 2016 at 3:38pm

Hope your appointment was what you wanted BC xo]]> Fri, 10 Jun 2016 15:38:09 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898688&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898688 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898638&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898638 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 09 June 2016 at 8:16am

Am glad you had a good day yesterday RD! Aside from the stupid ad of course. Haven't seen it but I'm pretty good at tuning out to the tv most of the time any way.
Sounds like your body has whipped straight back into shape which is great but yep also a stink reminder.

Lately I've had the whole Ivf thing running through my mind and thinking that it won't work then I get all emotional about it. Just hate that it's not a given. I know I should just trust my body. Everytime I've transferred an embryo tranferred something has at least tried to happen, it's just the chemical pregnancy I'm hoping doesn't happen. Anywho will just try to go with the flow for now. Appt tomorrow so should have a plan after that.

Have a great day :)]]> Thu, 09 Jun 2016 08:16:41 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898638&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898638 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898636&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898636 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 09 June 2016 at 6:48am

Big hugs BC. I do get it and it really does suck big time.

Month anniversary date today and I just got my period when I got up. Another unnecesary reminder but on the bright side at least my body is doing what it should.

Yesterday was great thanks BC up until a new huggies add came on tv. I hope you haven't seen it or don't ever see it. Was a massive kick in the teeth. Why do they make those ads so emo dammit!!

]]> Thu, 09 Jun 2016 06:48:42 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898636&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898636 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898629&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898629 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 08 June 2016 at 8:31pm

Posting here cos you 'get' this.

Facebook pregnancy announcement🙄🙄🙄 - cool cos they're a same sex couple so I know what they went through to get there but still tugs a string.

Both SILs (Dhs sisters) have contacted me after the birthday we were at this weekend to check in about how I was after meeting the newest addition to the family. Much appreciated that they get my perspective. Wish they didn't have to consider my feelings....sucks to be that person everyone worries about.

How you doing today anywho? ]]> Wed, 08 Jun 2016 20:31:55 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898629&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898629 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898590&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898590 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 07 June 2016 at 5:27pm

After anthea posted that I counted up and it's 11wks tomorrow for me. Seems like an age but not that long if that makes sense.
Glad the reiki helped. I'm planning to get my back sorted next holidays when I go stay with my parents. Going to make mum find me a good osteo as its all up the whack after Paige. ]]> Tue, 07 Jun 2016 17:27:18 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898590&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898590 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898585&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898585 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 07 June 2016 at 3:34pm

So lovely You've started your garden BC. ❤

I can't believe its only been 4 weeks yesterday! I had reiki last night and the healing was amazing. There's a long way to go but it was so worth doing.]]> Tue, 07 Jun 2016 15:34:17 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898585&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898585 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898576&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898576 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 07 June 2016 at 10:39am

Huge hugs RD. Thinking of you too. xxx]]> Tue, 07 Jun 2016 10:39:01 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898576&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898576 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898574&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898574 Author: antheawren
Subject: 45057
Posted: 07 June 2016 at 9:13am

Thinking of you today rd - 4 weeks! Sending you tons of love xxx]]> Tue, 07 Jun 2016 09:13:41 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898574&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898574 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898569&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898569 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 06 June 2016 at 6:01pm

Yep feeling much better today although now DH seems to have picked it up...whoops lol. Thankfully it was a shortlived type.
Managed to plant the first rose in Paige's garden today and ordered more plants for it. The sun got me motivated. ]]> Mon, 06 Jun 2016 18:01:50 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898569&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898569 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898568&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898568 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 06 June 2016 at 5:19pm

Hope the bug has improved BC!]]> Mon, 06 Jun 2016 17:19:15 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898568&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898568 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898559&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898559 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 05 June 2016 at 7:27pm

I did survive so that's a positive.,
DH did not fare up too well lol. We got home at 4am! And my upset tummy ended up being a stomach bug. So he's been hungover all day and I've been laid up with the bug. Cheesed off as it was such a beautiful day too.
Supposed to be going to his grandfathers birthday tomorrow but I think I'll pass as he's 97 and I don't want to give it to him.
Sounds like you have had a good day- well at least busy if nothing else xx]]> Sun, 05 Jun 2016 19:27:09 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898559&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898559 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898558&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898558 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 05 June 2016 at 7:16pm

That sounds super hard BC. You survived it, yhats amazing. I think I would be ok with babies too but not sure about pregnant bellies and all the baby talk.
We've been invited to a baby-q next weekend. Bbq in lieu of baby shower. And I really don't know how I'd cope.
How did hubby shape up today?
Yesterday and today have been great with the excitement of launching my Business. And the busyness of getting the house market ready.]]> Sun, 05 Jun 2016 19:16:54 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898558&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898558 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898551&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898551 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 05 June 2016 at 12:47am

Thanks RD had a quick read earlier. Been at BILs 30th - the new baby born a month after Paige was there. I was ok and had a cuddle as can't deny niece her Aunty but by jingos it was blimming hard sitting there while all the chatter revolved around babies and all I could think about was the fact I should've been sitting there with a fat belly. Didn't help I had an upset stomach and felt like dying too.
I was a bit funny about going in the first place as didn't want to be that person people didn't know how to talk to. Thankfully it wasn't too bad. Now just waiting for my drunken man to be ready to go home lol.

How's your day been? X]]> Sun, 05 Jun 2016 00:47:27 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898551&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898551 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898544&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898544 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 04 June 2016 at 10:49am

I'll PM you about it BC. Don't want to crowd this thread with business talk 😊]]> Sat, 04 Jun 2016 10:49:02 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898544&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898544 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898530&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898530 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 03 June 2016 at 4:05pm

Wow busy times RD. What business are you starting up?
Lol I'm the same as your DH - work would be awesome without the kids but then really what is the purpose of the work haha.
]]> Fri, 03 Jun 2016 16:05:06 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898530&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898530 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898515&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898515 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 03 June 2016 at 9:21am

Good work on the exercising!!
Hubby always feels like teacher only days are like a day off. He says he would absolutley love being a teacher if there were no kids all the time!
Stunning day here but bloody freezing. DS at daycare, just warming up with a coffee before I get stuck into sorting stuff for getting our house presentable for going on the market. Photographer will come mid week then it'll be on the market the following Monday with first open home that weekend.
It's a little overwhelming but just trying to go with it.
Also going to be launching my business this week! Crazy. I wanted to pull the plug on the business after loosing Micah but decided to go with it. There's really nothing to loose and i can dictate how much i put into it.
Hope everyone has a great long weekend. xo]]> Fri, 03 Jun 2016 09:21:55 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898515&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898515 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898510&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898510 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 03 June 2016 at 6:48am

I get it RD.
Blasted my ass at the gym last night which made me feel better. Then told DH about the boy and he asked if he needs adopting lol.
Hope you have a good day today. We've got teacher only day so still at work but no kids so it's like a holiday hehe. ]]> Fri, 03 Jun 2016 06:48:51 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898510&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898510 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898503&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898503 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 02 June 2016 at 5:09pm

It was a bit of both BC. Happy I'd been cos it had been 2 weeks and p*ssed off that I had to be there at all. It made me desperately miss my girl and feel so angry at the world and the unfairness of it all. Just like the boy at your school so so unfair and I know what you mean. All the publicity of the Moko case makes me so sick. That poor boy. There's so many kids like that. Has made me think about fostering too!!

Good you talked things out with DH. Must be so hard for them.

I wrote another letter to Micah last night and bawled my eyes out after. Good to get things on paper.

Taking tomorrow off work and going to keep.myself busy at home. Going to be a nice day with a cold start.]]> Thu, 02 Jun 2016 17:09:30 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898503&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898503 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898501&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898501 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 02 June 2016 at 3:37pm

Oh gosh - so I almost bawled in assembly at school today. We've got this kid who's about 11. Expelled from all his other schools, comes from an awful home life - no food sometimes, parents on god knows what drugs, drinking etc, dad in jail. My boss showed me some things he'd posted on his dad's Facebook page and it broke my heart.
It's just not fricking fair! Not fair that a) Me, a perfectly good citizen who loves children, had to lose her baby and b) that this poor kid has to live like that!
GAH!!! Sucky. Not often a kid will affect me like that but just makes me more determined than ever to become a foster mum one day.

Sorry just had to get that off my chest. ]]> Thu, 02 Jun 2016 15:37:45 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898501&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898501 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898490&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898490 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 02 June 2016 at 8:05am

Thanks guys for the reassurance.

RD bet it made you feel good sprucing up Micah's plot or maybe not. Not really sure which it would be. Anywho I hope you're doing ok hun.
I know for me I just have to make peace with it instead of fighting it and feeling rotten all the time. We display Paige's memory box in the lounge with a picture of her lovely foot on the front and I'll often sit down and take a look through the things inside.

Am pushing forward with this IVF thing despite having an interesting conversation with DH last night. I think he's a bit conflicted about it all. He did say I should do what makes me happy although I can tell he's worried about going through that all again and something else going wrong, mainly about how it will affect me. I just straight out said I'm not planning to keep doing it forever but I have to try one more time then make peace with it and move on. He could see my point of view. Think he also just wishes we didn't have to spend more money on it and told me to tell the specialist to give it to us for free lol. I know of people who've been offered free treatment after a loss like that but I'd feel a bit cheeky to ask outright. And I don't feel entitled to having free treatment just because I was unlucky to lose a baby. It's our choice to proceed with trying again so we have to take the consequences financially.

Anywho hugs and kissed I'd better do some work. ]]> Thu, 02 Jun 2016 08:05:16 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898490&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898490 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898481&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898481 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 01 June 2016 at 6:21pm

You've got a large squad cheering you on BC!! You've made the first step. One which you probably thought would be near impossible to make only a short time ago.

Went to Micah's plot during lunch time to clean her up. There were still fresh flowers that we're looking very dire so replaced those with fakes. Brightened it up a bit. She's sprouting some fresh grass and there was a lady bug on her solar light which I instantly said hello to when I saw it. I always think of babies when I see lady bugs.
]]> Wed, 01 Jun 2016 18:21:44 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898481&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898481 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898457&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898457 Author: Kiwigirl75
Subject: 45057
Posted: 01 June 2016 at 9:30am

Babaycrazy, good on you for making the appointment. Only you can know when you are ready. All the best for Friday! ]]> Wed, 01 Jun 2016 09:30:39 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898457&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898457 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898456&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898456 Author: GEONC
Subject: 45057
Posted: 01 June 2016 at 8:40am

You now sound absolutely certain! No more limbo. Make plans and try!
Will of course be cheering you on!!!!!]]> Wed, 01 Jun 2016 08:40:23 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898456&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898456 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898455&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898455 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 01 June 2016 at 7:49am

Thanks girls.

Geo I guess you're right because I have kind of only have the guts to call this week so suppose that means I'm ready. Bit scared at the same time though which is understandable. I have to keep reminding myself that doing IVF again does not necessarily mean a baby on board. And yes it is about control too. At least if I'm being proactive I've got something other than what feels like an empty future to focus on. If it doesn't work out then at least I can draw a line in the sand and refocus my life. Right now just feels like I live in limbo (which I've said a million times before lol). ]]> Wed, 01 Jun 2016 07:49:12 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898455&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898455 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898434&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898434 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 31 May 2016 at 5:34pm

Awesome BC you've got a.plan in place
Very exciting!!]]> Tue, 31 May 2016 17:34:41 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898434&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898434 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898432&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898432 Author: GEONC
Subject: 45057
Posted: 31 May 2016 at 4:24pm

I think if you've made an appointment you are ready. Yes so much trepidation I can imagine. Healing post Paige will be ongoing. Totally different but I felt trying to get pregnant and control over that after previously not having choice and control was very empowering. Protected my heart until I felt that baby was actually going to be here in our family, I think that's kinda what happens after loss! Eep excited for you!!!! ]]> Tue, 31 May 2016 16:24:31 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898432&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898432 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898431&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898431 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 31 May 2016 at 4:10pm

Sooo am I mad?
I just booked in with the Fertility specialist - managed to get in next Friday believe it or not.
Is it too soon? I mean I feel ok 90% of the time. It'll be a couple months before I get going with IVF though so I guess that'll be ok.
The practical side of me wants to do it soon as it's not so full on at work compared to later in the year, plus DH isn't as busy as well. And I really just want to know my fate.....will I get pregnant and finally get my baby or am I destined to be the mother of one lost child? I don't want to start another year with that hanging over my head.

Anywho how are you doing RD and everyone else who's popped in here. Hopefully ok xx]]> Tue, 31 May 2016 16:10:54 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898431&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898431 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898411&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898411 Author: antheawren
Subject: 45057
Posted: 30 May 2016 at 9:01pm

I find any excuse I can to drop Meika's name into a conversation - if people ask how many children I have I always include Meika in it and say she was stillborn! I also find myself lucky as they did a newspaper article on me and Meika last year so I get people who come up and say they read the article - I now make sure people remember! ]]> Mon, 30 May 2016 21:01:10 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898411&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898411 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898410&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898410 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 30 May 2016 at 8:57pm

😘 BC ]]> Mon, 30 May 2016 20:57:08 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898410&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898410 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898391&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898391 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 30 May 2016 at 6:29pm

I went through the same thing probably about the same point after having Paige. It's that point where for everyone else life has gone on and for you you've started back into some kind of regular routine again yet you think of her every day. I'd had people checking in almost daily etc and then all of a sudden it was like nothing. As a result there was a patch where I struggle to speak her name out loud, now though I'll talk quite easily about her.
Say her name out loud hun, she's your girl and you're allowed to! xx]]> Mon, 30 May 2016 18:29:18 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898391&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898391 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898378&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898378 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 30 May 2016 at 11:32am

Hell yes it feels like longer. At this time 3 weeks ago I was in the final stages of labour and only 10 mins away from meeting Micah. It really is hard to comprehend sometimes. Almost surreal. It's when reality hits that it's the hardest.

At gym this morning I was hoping someone would say something to me. Anything. We don't really get much chance to chat cos all the kids go nuts so it's full on supervising. I just felt a desperate need to talk out loud about Micah.
Funny How the mind works sometimes.]]> Mon, 30 May 2016 11:32:56 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898378&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898378 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898375&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898375 Author: antheawren
Subject: 45057
Posted: 30 May 2016 at 10:54am

Thinking of you today rd - 3 weeks - feels like a lot longer doesn't it? ]]> Mon, 30 May 2016 10:54:15 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898375&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898375 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898372&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898372 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 30 May 2016 at 10:33am

Ha I'd leave most of it to my DH too. That kind of thing stresses me out.

Wow only three weeks. Feels a bit longer. Gosh be easy on yourself hun because it is only that long.

I still sit sometimes and marvel that I've even been through that whole experience. I can't believe I still manage to function half the time. As I always say it's almost too much to comprehend.]]> Mon, 30 May 2016 10:33:10 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898372&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898372 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898365&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898365 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 30 May 2016 at 9:03am

Very full on! Leaving most of it to DH & putting my 2 cents in here and there. Rental should be ok. There's tonnes around just that I'll be a bit fussy and competition is pretty fierce. Also we have a cat!!

Can't believe it's only three weeks today]]> Mon, 30 May 2016 09:03:34 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898365&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898365 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898342&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898342 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 29 May 2016 at 6:35pm

Well done on finding nice fake flowers - they're sometimes hard to come by! I bet it will brighten up Micah's resting place just nicely.

Funny it sounds like we did read the same article. Was a good one actually.

Yes stress is totally off the cards when it comes to this next ivf. I'll have to keep reminding myself to not over commit to things during it too.

Exciting times ahead selling your house but also pretty full on. I can imagine finding a nice rental would be hard?

]]> Sun, 29 May 2016 18:35:38 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898342&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898342 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898341&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898341 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 29 May 2016 at 6:27pm

I think we read the same article!

I understand what you mean about the chairperson business especially in a small community. I'm on the BOT for my sons daycare that doesn't even involve a lot of work or stress but it's another thing to have to think about. Sounds like you would be better off without the stress especially as you go into the next round of IVF.
Sorry to hear you had a wobbly moment too..they seem to catch you off guard.

We've decided first step is to sell and we would rent in between finding a section and building exciting & scary times.

Stumbled upon some nice fake flowers today. I'd been conscious that the flowers on Micah's grave will be looking very sad by now. So will give her a tidy up this week.]]> Sun, 29 May 2016 18:27:18 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898341&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898341 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898338&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898338 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 29 May 2016 at 3:22pm

Ah stink about the land prices. I just can't believe how ridiculous it all is these days. We're very lucky to own our home and have 5 acres to go with it, we do live in the whops though so makes it a bit more affordable.

Random I have one those moments this morning - missing Paige, missing being pregnant just like you. Ugh it's dumb isn't it. And then I've just wanted hibernate in the house today and blimming people keep ringing wanting my time for dumb stuff to do with our local hall committee (of which I am chairperson). And being a small community and my neighbours and friends they don't just 'call in' get what they need and go. Nope it's an hour of conversation lol. It's a cool I have such lovely people to live near, just not my headspace today. It did cement my decision to come off the committee once the time for elections comes though. Just the thought of having to do anything relating to it actually winds me up at the moment and it's not worth the stress - I can't even say why it winds me up.

Anywho didn't mean to head into a little rant - whoops and totally boring to anyone who doesn't know who or what I'm even on about!

I read an article on Stuff today written by a lady who lost her daughter in a car accident down South a couple years ago. She talked about making treasured memories and traditions she has which help her through her grief. Basically what she was saying was that there shouldn't be a timeline on grief nor should you be expected to just stop remember or talking about your lost loved one. And that when you do talk about it people shouldn't have to feel sad for you or think that your sad because sometimes remembering the happy memories can be a good thing for you. If that makes sense. It made me feel better about talking about Paige as sometimes I kind of don't because I think that people might feel uncomfortable when actually who cares if they do! I don't expect people to not discuss their babies or grandchildren around me just because I lost a baby so they shouldn't expect me to not talk about my experience.

Getting off my soap box now lol. ]]> Sun, 29 May 2016 15:22:56 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898338&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898338 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898337&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898337 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 29 May 2016 at 3:02pm

Read a good article about living normally along side your grief. You don't have to give up one for the other. I liked that sentiment.]]> Sun, 29 May 2016 15:02:22 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898337&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898337 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898336&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898336 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 29 May 2016 at 3:00pm

Seeing the show homes added a level of excitement which was crushed by the fact that there's no affordable land out there. But we'll see what happens. 😀
Had a wobble going to bed last night. Was quite suddenly overwhelmed with missing Micah. Missing being pregnant. But it passed quickly.
DS slept in with no wake ups in the night yay👍]]> Sun, 29 May 2016 15:00:44 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898336&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898336 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898321&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898321 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 29 May 2016 at 9:14am

How were the show homes yesterday?

Weather was pretty crappy here yesterday but we won our game so that's a bonus.
You're right you do have to make the best of things. My main thing is that I am longer going to be a hero and think I can do it all. There are so many things I do that I don't enjoy and do out of feeling like I should or because of obligation. Family and fun come first now. Losing Paige made me see how busy I am and that needed to change. ]]> Sun, 29 May 2016 09:14:44 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898321&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898321 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898298&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898298 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 28 May 2016 at 8:14am

Yeah we're looking at building or buying in a better area as we are not zoned and the unzoned schools are not great to say the least.
Friends around the corner from us sold their place in four days for an astronomical amount & I think our place is better LOL
But we'll see as we have to buy into the same market.
Micah has truly made me acknowledge that nothing in life is guaranteed so why not make the best of the things we can control.
As you say talking about it and doing it are two different things!
Best of luck with netball
Hope the weather is better where you're going!!]]> Sat, 28 May 2016 08:14:00 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898298&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898298 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898292&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898292 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 27 May 2016 at 9:19pm

Ooh exciting bet DS will love that and exciting looking at show homes. Are you looking at building?

I've just got my usual trip to netball planned - an all day expedition as our team plays away (1.5hrs one way) because our local competition is pretty social and we prefer to play competitively.
I've been pretty lucky each IVF that something has happened just hate the wretched chemical pregnancies and scared that'll happen again. But when I got pregnant with Paige I had a clean out of my uterus the cycle prior which seemed to reset my cycle and I'm sure made my lining better. So because of that I'm going with the theory that childbirth does the same lol. And it makes me not want to wait too much longer.
Just gotta make the call to see the specialist - I seem to be good at talking about it but taking the plunge...well that's another thing haha. ]]> Fri, 27 May 2016 21:19:54 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898292&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898292 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898291&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898291 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 27 May 2016 at 9:06pm

Taking DS to ice age on ice tomorrow and looking at some show homes. 😀

How about you? I certainly hope that your next ivf works straight away. Your body knows what to do now!! ]]> Fri, 27 May 2016 21:06:19 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898291&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898291 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898285&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898285 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 27 May 2016 at 7:52pm

I was actually surprised how quickly my body reset itself. Hopefully it stays that way and I get utd just like *that* with the next ivf.
I'm stoked to hear you're feeling brighter! Sometimes I think getting back into a routine can help a little bit, provides a distraction if nothing else.
What have you got planned for the weekend? ]]> Fri, 27 May 2016 19:52:58 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898285&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898285 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898284&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898284 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 27 May 2016 at 7:38pm

Today has been so different. I actually felt genuinely brighter. It's such a relief. Having a day like today makes thinking of the future much less overwhelming.
My baby girl must be sending me the strength I've been asking for ❤]]> Fri, 27 May 2016 19:38:08 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898284&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898284 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898251&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898251 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 26 May 2016 at 6:51pm

Definitely over pads. Good that your body got back on track so quick]]> Thu, 26 May 2016 18:51:32 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898251&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898251 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898242&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898242 Author: babycrazy
Subject: 45057
Posted: 26 May 2016 at 9:31am

Ugh RD I had bleeding for about 3 1/2 weeks I think then had a week off and bam AF arrived. I was over the sight of pads that's for sure.
Sorry you're not well and feeling blah.
I had to hide the chocolate that we kept being given. And I started little with eating better. That meant I stopped chocolates, fizzy drink, juice. Then I stopped having brown sugar on my porridge and went for kiwifruit and yoghurt. Then when I got to the school holidays I stopped eating muesli bars and biscuits. Increased my intake of veges and looked for healthier options. Then slowly increased my exercise output - very slowly this old body hadn't moved like that for some time haha.
Little steps hun and if you're unwell don't worry about what you're eating, you need comfort right now. ]]> Thu, 26 May 2016 09:31:20 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898242&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898242 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898239&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898239 Author: LP pka Rainyday
Subject: 45057
Posted: 26 May 2016 at 7:46am

Damn head cold has taken hold 😞
MMotivational levels pretty low today. Trying not to look in the mirror too much cos even makeup won't hide the tired eyes.
I ate terribly yesterday. It doesn't make for feeling physically better that's for sure. Will try to be better today.
Bleeding looked to be finished but false alarm still going ]]> Thu, 26 May 2016 07:46:50 +0000 https://www.ohbaby.co.nz/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=45057&PID=5898239&title=termination-for-medical-reasons#5898239